You have such a BIG heart | Elin Härkönens blogg

" El. It's amazing What?! You have such a BIG heart. Aw thank you. Such a big heart for such a little body.

But you do work hard."

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These words, so familiar.. Why?

I have heard them before....

So many feelings just blew up, from no where.

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I am still processing it. And I will probably do for the rest of my life. It follows me, like a shadow....I have to deal with it EVERY single day.

The chronic pain , the evil reminder of what I've been through. ( noone can see it, but damn I can feel it)

BUT It is getting better and better.

I AM TRYING TO BE POSITIVE

Every single day am I coming further and further away from it... I am getting better to deal with it... And I am getting stronger.

but sometimes it just happens. Like today.

A word, a sentence...

sometimes even just a smell, a taste or a photo can affect me... some days it doesn't need much for me to feel it.

Flash backs to how it was, everything I've been through and that it has caused so much harm to me and my family.

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But on the other hand I am thankful . Thankful how lucky I was.

They keep telling me it is a miracle I am still here, and that I have recovered like this is just too good to be true. I feel blessed. But I have worked hard. We don't get anything for free in life.

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There are so much more to my story that I haven't shared... yet. It will come. With time. I am still processing it.

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Today I just want to put an extra thought out there for you. "DON'T judge someone you don't know. Cause you have NO idea what that person has been through or are going through right now."

Please don't judge at all. And please don't assume things.

---- " Eli you have such a BIG heart for such a little body.

That you are still alive is unbelievable. Your heart rate was down to 32 "

Don't need to say anything more, for now. I just hope this can make you think. # doNEVERjudgesomeone

I wasn't planning on sharing this now.... but it just came to me. What matters in the end is what you choose to do with the challenges you get in life. It is possible to BREAK IT and MAKE IT. I promise you, I KNOW . # breakitandyouwillmakeit